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Erika Tafel |
Erika Tafel was not your typical teen behind bars.
She came from a middle class nuclear family with two brothers and professional parents on the West Island and has never, to this day, been charged with any crime.
But her stubborn refusal to attend school led her to be locked away at Shawbridge alongside girls who committed serious crimes.
Tafel's issues started at age 12 when she rebelled against attending St. Thomas School in Beaconsfield, a Catholic school which she considered not all that interesting.
Her mom, a nurse, and dad, an engineer, were at loggerheads with her decision to spend her days in non-academic environments and the standoff eventually led to Tafel being locked up at Shawbridge in 1983, at age 13.
A few months ago Tafel - now living in B.C. - wrote a memoir of her four years at the youth facility,
Slave to the Farm, apparently the first-ever first-hand account of life in the century-old institution as seen through the eyes of an inmate.
Her main critique of the system is that it makes no distinction between youth sent there due to difficult family situations and cohabitants locked up after committing grievous misdeeds. .
In fact, the blameless kids had it worse in some ways, as those kept inside for committing misdeeds are given clear time-frames for departure, whereas the family protection kids are kept inside indefinitely.
And yet while Tafel missed her parents, there was a strange comfort in being away from the quarrels in her fish-out-of-water/coming-of-age tale.
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Erika Tafel |
"It was so much cooler to be in jail than it was to grounded at home with my mom," she said.
"I missed them greatly but my mom and I had a strange relationship so being with her was challenging and my father was a hardworking processional, he was emotionally not there. My life with him consisted of him getting up and going to work going to sleep, he didn't discipline me."
Once inside, however, there was no sense that she'd ever get to leave before turning 18 and the system certainly was in no rush to let kids out because they are compensated on a per-head basis, which makes it in their financial interest to keep them around.
Tafel, from a comfortable West Island background, found herself being explained the world through the eyes of child prostitutes and even a couple of murderers, but she said that it wasn't all bad, and she even developed some close ties to others girls, regardless of their difficult situations.
"One of the most incredible discoveries I found in discussing with them years later," she told Coolopolis, "was that we all missed it to some degree. There's a trauma bonding between people incarcerated together. As adults, they strive to find a community feeling that they've never since been able to replace."
Tafel attempted to run away several times and finally succeeded in 1986 when she was 16, close to her 17th birthday.
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Tafel in a more recent photo |
This time she was able to stay out for good with the help of a boyfriend five years her senior, who let her move in with him and helped her hire a lawyer who got all warrants against her dropped.
She took a job in a sandwich shop in on St. John's Blvd and re-established ties with her parents.
Tafel attended university in Thunder Bay, then returned to Montreal but left again in 1995, going out west where she eventually settled on the coast where off-the-grid in Rock Creek, B.C. with the man she married in 1997 and the two children that she proudly proclaims have never attended conventional schools.
Her parents and a brother now live in Ottawa, while another brother still lives in Montreal
Since starting her research project, Tafel has communicated with many others who also experienced a similar narrative at Shawbridge (since renamed Batshaw) and she has embarked upon a second book.
So those with stories to share are invited to contact her through her site.
If there's one change to the system she'd like to see, it would be greater compassion for those who are sent there for being misfits, rather than criminals.
"Housing protection cases alongside youth offenders is a grave mistake. I was a babe in the woods, a greenhorn. One of the first girls I met had strangled her sister. Until I met this girl, murderers were these big hairy tattooed biker dudes, they weren't girls in my age or school. I had an epiphany that murder was possible for anybody."